I became anorexic during my very young teenage years. This was a very dark, silent, private disease for me. I came from a family of 9 and I was stuck right in the middle at number 5. I seemed to be the one that was overlooked, taken advantage of, the "right-hand-man" if you will. My parents were VERY strict, leaving very little for me to be in control over anything in my life (or so I felt). I resorted to starving myself. This gave me a sense of power, accomplishment, attention and control. I, of course, was self-sabotaging but this is not something that I could just turn on and off. (Much like you will find with your own lifestyle battles.) I had to take a look at my feelings of being overlooked and under appreciated and deal with them instead of covering them up with anorexia.
Many of you who read this, may binge, purge, isolate yourself to eat, gorge at night, pick at food, skip meals and any other poor eating habit you have acquired. The only way to get yourself out of it, is to find out how and why you got into it. I'll liken it to hiking in a dark cave. You go in blind, get in rather quickly, then you find yourself lost. It takes much longer to find your way back than it did to get in. The only way to get yourself out is by finding and retracing your steps back to the entrance. There will be a lot of stumbling, setbacks, maybe some blood sweat and tears, but you can and will make it out of the cave and once you do you will not want to go back.
For today take some time, no GIVE yourself some time to think about the habits in your life that are self-sabotaging. Recognize what got you there, and what steps you need to take to get out of there.
This step cannot be avoided. As always, I am available for help, questions, or as a neutral person you can communicate to. loseweightwithmeforfree@gmail.com
You must make a permanent change in your lifestyle if you want a permanent change in your body!
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